My life and my thots

Monday, February 02, 2009

福包 - A bag of blessing

It is my desire that I become a blessing to the people around me...

I want to shine and yet I am feeling powerless.

Often a crossroad. And yearly, got new crossroad.
I thought it wouldn't be a yearly crossroad. But once again, it is...
If I have a choice, I want to scold and blame the situation.

Really loh, not fair... Each time I have to start from scratch... And it is really frustrating!
Thought of flying to the moon, but yet something always holds me back. Just feel that there's unfinished business... Sometimes I wonder... Is it really unfinished business or just the comfort level? This time, it is tougher to hold on. Am struggling... Now the moon is like even further away, so how to even fly to the moon?

Stick on stick on, press on press on!

It's all or nothing!!!
God, please give me the strength and tenacity to keep on keeping on. And also to climb the mountains, find new waters, new scenery...

Let me bring some warmth (even if it is just a little bit of it) whereever I go.


I give thanks to God for carrying me to where I am...
God, I need You. To hold my hands, to carry me, to love me...
I can't do it alone without You.
I need your purpose to be clear to me, so that I can run with a vision and direction.
Lord, break the walls of my heart so that I can receive love to overflowing.
Give me strength to face the sad things in life.
Let me empathise with people.
Help me to listen to people with an open heart.
Let me be non-judgemental.
Make me a fruitful person; reaping fruits of labor of love, money and blessings...


I want to lay down my life to serve.
God, come and turn my life around.
I do not just want to be known as one who is nice.
I want to be known as the one who heals the brokenhearted and brings recovery...


Sounds so cliche...


Anyway, I finally wrote 2 CNY cards and 2 mini cards in the last few days. :)
I used to write so many letters/notes to people last time, now it is a super rare thing.
But I enjoy giving little notes. I should do more of it :)


Valentine's Day is 12 days away... Wow!
Am not expecting any invites, as I have not been sowing any seeds into any heart.
Hope that it is a nice day of Friendship day though! :)
And somehow I can get a red rose again, hee!

The "My Life, Your Song" song quite fit my emotions and situation, esp the chinese version 我一生要歌唱".
1st line of the song: 是你的手 永远扶持我 我能够尽情飞翔
Am not goin to type all of the chinese lyrics, but here's the english song.

WHOSE HANDS ARE THESE
HOLDING MY TRAPEZE
WHEN I FLY
YOU CARRY ME

WHOSE EYES ARE THESE
WATCHING OVER ME
EYES OF LOVE
THAT SET ME FREE

UNAFRAID
WHAT'S AHEAD
YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE BEFORE
MY WHOLE WORLD
YOUR DESIGN
YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE
JUST RIGHT BEHIND

MY LIFE IS YOUR SONG
TO YOU MY HEART BELONGS
LET ALL EARTHLY CROWNS
FADE IN THE SHADOW OF THE CROSS
MY LIFE IS YOUR SONG
I'LL SING FOR YOU ALONE
NOTHING IN THIS WORLD
CAN TAKE ME AWAY FROM YOU
OUR LOVE GOES ON AND ON

WHOSE ARMS ARE THESE
SHELTER ME FROM HARM
IN THE STORM
YOU ARE MY CALM
WHOSE VOICE I HEAR
WHISPER IN MY EAR
WHEN I'M LOST
YOU'RE ALWAYS NEAR

IN ALL MY LIFE
BE GLORIFIED
WITH CHRIST IN ME
NO LONGER I
SO TAKE MY ALL
CONSUMING FIRE
YOUR LIGHT IN ME
I'LL LET IT SHINE


God, consume me and be glorified in all my life! :)