Chocolates are not always sweet

I often love chocolates...

But some chocolates are bitter... Yet, I did not want to accept it...
Sigh... Stubbornness?

Would you understand? Would you ever understand?

Yes, I want to be a blessing...
However, I gave more than I thought I did.

Yes, I was disappointed.
To receive, I risked not receiving anything in return.

That's the way of life yah?

And my consolation once again?
Yes, I gave. Yes, I tried. Yes, I hoped.
I hope you were blessed!
My consolation: I know I tried and have no regrets.

But, I fell.

And last of all, I still hoped in my God who promised me somebody greater that He has in stored for me.

Was I silly or what?
I did as my heart led... I followed my heart's desire...
I tried not to look at signs...

How shall I handle this the next time?
Foolishness is when you do things the same way and expect a different result.

Friends who heard from me know that yes, it is not easy for me.

And yes, I am still in search of a "you"...

God, give me the strength to bring a closure to things which are not worthwhile.
God, keep my heart pure and strong.
God, help me to continue believing that the best is yet to be.
God, cause me to understand the season I live in and enjoy it.
Your strength is made perfect in my weakness.

All I desire is a pure heart after You...