My life and my thots

Monday, December 18, 2006

Christmas is 1 week away

Today I actually have weird feelings...
Also don't know how to express.

Feel that nobody really understands me.
Perhaps it is cos I don't express myself well.

How will this Christmas be for me?
Gifts and presents?
Joy and happiness?
Surprises and hugs?

Darius & Daphne wedding (16th)
It was held at a church in Pasir Ris.
You can sense the joy and excitement from bridegroom.
Last year he just introduced us to his girlfriend in May last year, this year December he is happily married. :)

It's the 4th wedding that I attended from my ministry group.
I caught the bouquet of flowers that the bride threw.
Really I was just being sporting. I was the 1st one who went up.
The flowers did not fall in front of me. I think it was between the bridegroom's sister and me, but perhaps nearer to me, so I caught it. Haha, I did not even know that I was supposed to keep the flowers until my friends told me.
But anyway, I really like the flowers. :) See my previous posting, I asked for a bouquet of flowers. And yes, I got it less than a week later.
Praise the Lord! I am always being reminded of how sweet God is to me... :) Thank you, Jesus!
The flowers smells really nice, especially the champagne one in the centre.

SOT (Bible School) graduation service and ceremony (17th)
There was a tangible presence of God at the service. I felt like crying when I saw Kelly and Sarah on the screen cos I saw how much they went through these 10 months at SOT. 10 months of time is really a sacrifice. Doing all the assignments, attending overnight prayer meetings, attending many services, etc isn't all that easy. But it is definitely all worthed it.
It reminds me of my desire and reason why I went to SOT in 2004. I was reminded that I so much wanted to know God more and do more for God.
Both Kelly's and Sarah's mothers attended the graduation ceremony. This is something I really yearned for, approval and support from my parents. Cos I remember that they did not attend my university graduation. They only appeared after the ceremony. Can't really blame them cos they attended 3 others (my siblings' ones) before... But I still wished they saw me getting my certificate on stage. Hehe!
Anyway, I want to say to Kelly's and Sarah's mothers "You can be so proud of your daughters!!! They are such wonderful and beautiful people. You did a great job in raising them up!"

Christmas service at "A piece of heaven" (17th)
Usually I will get greeting cards from the guys that I spend my sunday afternoons with. This year besides the one that I got from the group, I did not get any others.
Haha, not that I spend my sunday afternoons just to get their cards, but I really do give a substantial amount of my time to them faithfully. And I did hope for their appreciation.

But 1 thing really touched my heart, this member of mine served me his food and drink. He was willing to go without the extra food though it usually means a lot to them. He has really applied what he has learnt from the recent sessions. ("Dear bro, you have tremendous potential within you. Continue to press in with Jesus, I believe you will make it great in life!")

I'm quite emotional today... :P
Writing and expressing some of my emotions out does help.
Haha, but I think there's one thing that bugs me which I never write down.

On Friday, I tot finally I got something. On Saturday, I began to wonder. On Sunday, I continue to wonder. On Monday, I really really wonder...

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