April - What's up?

Just wanna blog since I have the internet access and time.

Just seen the doctor. I thought I just has throat infection, plus I was feeling quite tired. But the doctor says that I have fever too. Think I have not been taking care of myself well, not resting enough. Need to go back and really rest! =)

What do I want to say?

Thing No. 1
Many things happened in my family over the past year and months.
It is something I never imagined would happen or I just hoped that it wouldn't.
Betrayal...
It hurts! Someone whom I love/loved hurts me and those I love...
That makes it a double portion of hurt man!
But I feel rather numbed...
What do I want? I want RESTORATION!
Whatever the devil takes away, God will restore double back to me!

But God is good, He doesn't allows things to happen to me more than I can bear.
Friends and relationships, they carry me through.
His love and outstretched arms, they assure and comfort me.
Thank you Jesus for paying the price for my life and my loved ones!

Thing No. 2
Recently took part in an event that requires me to go with an open heart.
To me, it requires boldness, confidence and a good attitude to make the decision to go and to actually turn up for the event. So 3 cheers for me!!!

Am glad that I went cos I did new things.
1. I met people that I have never meet before
2. I played games that I did not play before (reminds me of school orientation days)
-> Made our Dream Ice Kachang (Our snowman aka Ice Kachang Siew1)
3. I went to places that I did not go before
-> Labrador Park - War tunnels (can be a gd place to use for Fright nite)
-> Gallery by the Straits at SAF Yacht Club (nice ambience)

Yes, I stepped out of my comfort zone.
Am glad that I made new friends. Hopefully some of us can form an activity group and keep in touch. Else it would be meaningless.

What else do I want to say?

Thing No. 3
Have you ever had the experience of seeing something tht has so many of the features you always wanted it to have?

Let me give a example - A bag.
Your dream bag is this color, with this design, with this additional pocket, etc...
Then you finally get to see it.

How do you feel?
I feel excited and "wow"ed. I find it very amazing.

But then you see the price tag...
Then you start to wonder if you are willing to pay that high price.
Cos maybe you might find a similar bag somewhere else or perhaps you can get it at a cheaper price elsewhere...

What would you do?
I don't know about my decision yet.

Penning off now,
The little girl :)

After A While by Veronica A. Shoffstall (Part of it)

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.
And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman,
not the grief of a child
and you learn
to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down
in mid-flight.
After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth.

This was pretty true of how I felt during a period of time.
Want to remove it from my Friendster profile so am putting it here now.